
I'm completely exhausted today.
Perhaps it's from working between 50-70 hours every week (except for my
lovely vacations). But I think it's the lack of sleep I've currently come to accept as part of the serious condition I've diagnosed myself with: The FOMS
Fear
Of
Missing
Something
The FOMS started for me in the summer of 2000, when I worked as a counselor at
an overnight summercamp. For 8 weeks of the year for three consecutive summers, I and a group of 50 other people my age lived in close quarters on a gorgeous property in
northwestern RI. We were all between the ages of 16 and 22. After the campers were tucked into bed, those who didn't have "night duty" went out and caused
mild mischief.
It's a church-camp, after all (disclaimer: it is not at all like
this garbage).
Being a counselor is an exhausting job. The days were hot and long. Sometimes you just didn't feel like
hanging out with kids and going to chapel, or eating the same old
iceberg lettuce and
chicken wings for dinner.
Those were the days that turned into the most memorable nights of my life. I should have gone right to bed. I should have slept and gained the much-needed rest for the upcoming day's work.
Nope.
The FOMS kick in around 10pm.
Dress in black as to not be seen. Raid the walk-in fridge for
Sysco brand canned pineapple. Beat up an old appliance in the woods with a baseball bat. Send each other on scavenger hunts in the pitch dark. Skinny dipping. Pranks. Visit your lover. Light something on fire (there were contests based on pyromania). Write sweet notes for your coworker who didn't give in to the FOMS and is sleeping peacefully. Stargaze. Watch
Orgazmo again and again.
Giving in to the FOMS proved to always be worth it in the past.
Now at age 23, with giant busy days filling my week, I find myself getting home from a 10 or 12 hour workday with a serious itching to go out and have big fun every night.
I barely use my Netflix account anymore (and my queue is kick-ass!). Should I give in to the FOMS or should I resist?
Hi. My name is Carla and I have the FOMS.
Am I alone on this?
xoxo
Restless With The FOMS Right Now